Saturday, December 17, 2011


i found myself saying
nobody understands

how ironic
i used to turn to you
in times 

like these

what hurts most
is not
that you're not here

but that
you won't be here
or the days after

you will miss
my milestones
they will miss you

without you
the world
seems unbalanced.

Monday, December 12, 2011


cuts you up
into pieces

suddenly life
is divided
into with
and after you

did you leave
if only..
so many
if onlys

but you left
so quickly
i trust you
might have done
yourself good

you took
a part of me 
with you
and left yourself
with me

dear boy
i will miss you madly
you knew that.

Friday, December 02, 2011


I don't know
if I can
carry you around

I try to
shrug you off
but you cling tightly

how do I forget?
let me try
to put you in a song

maybe somebody
will listen
and make it theirs

maybe my piano
will drain
you out of me

maybe you'll become
a melody I will hum
without thinking.