who do I have lunch with
in this sea of people
all disappearing into each other
with their swaying forks and laughing faces
so confident, loud, familiar
who do I have lunch with
do I try to catch someone's eye
or do I wait for a friendly wave
do I look away and pretend I don't care
take my tray and sit
coolly and confidently by myself
or will that appear rude?
should I ask someone
if I may join them
or will that seem intrusive?
who do I have lunch with
in this sea of people
all disappearing into each other
while I stand, so visible
to myself, heart racing
wishing to disappear
just like everyone else
