I work in marketing
I look at spreadsheets and dashboards
It's fun, but you know I was born
to look at earthworms crawling in the mud,
and marvel at sunflowers springing from seeds.
I speak a language which requires me
to sometimes say words like investment and equity,
but they don't roll easily off my tongue.
You know I was born to say words like
rainwashed and sunsoaked and barefoot abandon.
I create to-do lists and set reminders
to structure my life
and deliver whatever I'm supposed to.
But you know I was born to create stories
and compose songs and draw pictures and get paint on my pajamas.
I meet people and say, "Hi nice to meet you,"
I stay polite and draw boundaries
and behave the way I'm expected to.
But you know I was born to have deep, unshakeable connections
and to love wildly in a way I'm not expected to.
In my everyday life, I keep my guard up
I am careful, I know that self-preservation is an acquired skill.
Once in a while I'm compelled to let go.
And that's when it all feels right --
because you know I was born
to give all of me away.
