sick

ache,
squeezing
like a python

engulfing
gnawing at the insides
eating away

matter of time

it took up
so much energy, yet
we didn't burn out

we just put
it all aside
and it's piled up now

look,
questions, answers
that are waiting

to undo this balance
that we're pretending
to have achieved.

oh yes?

promises,
emotions,
decisions

all of you
are governed
by circumstances

that revolve
around you
sneering

at your naivete
to have believed
in constancy

disproving
the existence
of a
no matter what.

long nights

heavy head
morning mirror
toothbrush foam

hello,
sleep-swollen eyes
force yourselves open

conversation

this voice, shushed
I hope
you can't hear it

but it has spoken
to you
in my head

so many times
that I feel
you know already

and I wait
for your response
in careful, subdued anticipation

just for
the sake of the game
inwardly, I already know.

renewal

my neck hurts
now let me
arrange these pillows
and settle down nicely
on the bed
sleep and rest
for a month


then I'll get up
and run around the world.

stop
and listen
to all the noise
mixing sharp,
bright colours
into long exposure times

silence creeps alongside
in large, unseen
rubber-boot strides
till it decides
to take over
and make itself heard.